go OR go away

1:00 AM

its saturday
and guess what
im HOME
yea its becoming typical

rainy morning
pouring afternoons
freezing nights


i have bangs on my head now
i finally got to talk to my idiots online
im real happy for sisi
i got to know that i brought a pest to sisi

lastly
i finally found the right place
for the party

12:33 AM

i have alot to say


today's afternoon time was insane
went macs with sisi
been naughty and went to make fun of ppl
told the acs barker boys that our sch girls
were taking their pics told them to be careful
and we left laughing our heads off
before we know it
the boys were running across the road in the rain
the girls must hate us but sisi and i couldnt be bothered
we were bored


sigh
it sucks
when you live on the happiness of the ppl around you
like a battery


ystd sux and i thought today would be better
its half bad than expected


tuition as usual ystd
stupid matter shldnt had went further on

what kind of monster does this
you use to be my best partner
now you'r nothing but the same like the rest

i know in your eyes
im a boy, i'm forever one
but do you have to put that vision of yours
in everybody else's eyes

yea i may seem boyish in the past
but im a girl
im a girl in the past, a girl now
and i'll always be a girl
because god made me a girl

im even girl-lier now than ever
i dont care and dont bother
how you'r gonna think of me
but i felt rly hurt
with those words of yours

i broke down
and for a moment almost gave up
but i shall not
let you allow myself to be brought down

sometimes i regret bringing sisi to you

just when everything is getting back on track
something is bound to always come in between
damn



i cant wait for N lvls to end
i need the spree for everything
i feel like having what i quit
the party
31 okotober


its so hard to smile this days
but i'll do my best no matter what





you must be bored reading till here
or you just dont like me and wanna know
how the girl you dont like is leading her life
but whatever
i hope your day be better on the next day always

12:51 AM

this morning
woke up at 6 to write love letters
for the boys who are going ns
they were late but it was alright
we fooled around talked so much
was so touched when they said how much fun i gave them
i'll miss them
doubt they will meet when they book out but still
thanks for being there to every single one of you
when i lost the clique
thanks for being there rehlly


came home studied 3 hrs
home alone
considered to go wander on my own
but didnt and i had food bought for me


tonight's quite a night
i dumped a fr
an ungrateful one


im gonna study my heart out for a month


i dont think i can do it
but i must


the illusion
if i pass the clique will be there
it will come through right
god, i miss them
chester domic peiling hunwei matthew
maybe lex alil
wonder hows he now


okay i can do it
i have to


sigh



the silence isnt so bad
till i looked at my hands and feel sad

10:56 PM

and one thing which i almost forgot
everytime you appear unexpectedly
not to bring joy but the opposite

what am i to you


my face is not your street directory
my mind is not your 24 hrs singtel operator
and lastly
my heart is not for you to play





go away
stop the unexpected moves



i dont hate you
i hate me for getting affected
im annoyed when i shldnt be



you'r only human
but im the alien here

12:46 AM

today was insane
went to find sisi at tiong first
drummed and trained to town
went wisma to buy my cardis
ate our usual korea food at taka
went kino but no new comics
so walked over to far east

we'r like some spoilt brats
we kept wanting to take cab
cuz our heels were killing us


bought new wedges and shirt
badbadbad
we buy things without looking at prices
the shirt event was retarded
walked in store flipped around
took the shirt and paid
left for cine
but movie no more seats
:(

walked over to central shopped about
sat outside and people watched
bused to plaza sing even though its a stop away
bought eye mask face mask
went arcade
took pictures


came home early
but its alright
8 hrs of shopping in heels is fine too
missing out chunkfest was bad but
everything's worth for
a trip out with sisi



my legs are aching
breakfast with the boys tmr
:S



im becoming so girly and vain
if i were to look back at the old me
i wouldnt know who that girl is
dresses heels and every other girly stuff



:l
empty
empty
empty




what if the horror comes through

nvm you can do it
go michie :l

12:32 AM

went tiong for breakfast and grocery shopping
went to sweet talk stupid auntie cut my queue
i went to rawr at her son then walked off
bought coke instead


and guess who i saw
the most unexpected person ever
SAMUEL LEEEEE
i forgot everything and ran straight to hug him
and weijie also omg
cuz of ns they shaved their heads
:( poor boys they had such nice hair styles in the past
idiot samuel after the fight he go MIA
hmm outing with them soon :D


bought markers and pens



im going out with sisi soon
okay i cant wait

12:00 PM

go OR go away

1:00 AM
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